2:38 AM

And I’m feeling exhausted.

I should be sleeping but no surprise, I’m awake.

My eyelids feel like they’ve been dragging all week long which reminds me i should take that melatonin meds and go to sleep:

Tomorrow is the day to hopefully be productive first, lazy later.

I’m not sure if I wish the weekends were longer or I worked a better job that I enjoy.

Tomorrow I should cleanse my body of all the waste I decided to inhale and getting my body ready for bringing sexy back

If i could lose 30 pounds, I would be okay.

There are so many things I need to do and get my life together on.

SN: Low key as much as I’m glad he was honest, it did kind of sting that he didn’t believe in me

He tried to make me feel better, I guess to let himself be included of self-doubt

But i don’t want your pity

This whole situation proves that when people doubt me, they motivate me to not only prove them wrong, but to do better.

It’s so crazy how when you’re drunk you say what you’re feeling

And when you’re angry and upset you say what you really want to say but were afraid to say it because you didn’t want to hurt anyone’s feelings.

I have to recognize that it’s okay to have high standards, however people aren’t perfect.

People fuck up.

You will fuck up. And it’s okay.

And instead of attacking people, express your feelings using the terms “i feel as if…” instead of “you don’t do…”

Not everyone is like you.

Do not ruin a good thing going on

Recognize your faults and explanations to why

…..

I hate repeating myself because i feel like people don’t listen to me.

I fail to give credit where it’s due because im blinded by one side of the story.

i feel like im being belittled by my faults, which makes me feel like shit therefore i do the same to you

Only this time when i do it, i’m the annoying one, but you’re not?

Why is it that when i bring up a conversation in regards about your family it’s all of a sudden none of my business even though it is my business bc your family is apart of the reason why you are the way you are

Hence being my business

I feel like you never willing admit when you’re in the wrong unless you’re berated or when it’s time to apologize

Never yell at me again bc even though violence is never okay, i wanted to slap the shit out of you, but i didn’t because i didn’t want it to become a situation

Saying things like okay/or whatever upsets me more because i feel like you’re trying to squash the conversation without taking measures to solving the problem…because when you do that then proceed to have snide remarks, that bothers me, when you could have said it before, you didn’t.

I feel as if you know what im about to say, you should avoid me saying anything by doing it before i ask you.

But i degress

generally:

this year was really hard … I’m tired

amour-nourriture:

i was toxic to some and a blessing to others. im willing to admit i wasn’t always in the right.

the-moon-whisperer:

allthecoloursatonce:

Anyone else terrified that they are toxic and manipulative and just can’t see it? Or is that just me?

aisandetsarepeopletoo:

seafucker:

girls writing poetry are always like “i fed my blood to the coyotes i reached inside of myself and tore out my own lungs” and i’m always like damn u good? Mood tho

men writing poetry be like “cigarettes”